I LOVE giving gifts, anyone with me? 15 years ago you could find me in a queue at Woolies or WH Smith excitedly buying my mum something with the ten pounds i’d saved up from my weekend job- probably something plastic and probably something completely unnecessary- and six years ago I would have had no problem ordering all my gifts from Amazon with no idea how or where they were made or what harm I could be causing in the places I chose to invest my money. A few years later and with the exposure to some hardcore facts and realities, and mainly with a strong conviction to know those making my products were paid fairly, I chose to start shopping differently even though I didn't really have a clue where to go or where to start.

I remember sat on the floor of our bedroom crying, confused how I would ever make pumping work whilst also dealing with this deep grief I felt at the reality that it was seeming less and less likely that she would begin to breastfeed from me again however much I was believing she would.